I’m listening to the ping of rain bounce off my roof, dogs in the distance are woofing to be let in where it’s dry. Kevin descended from his man cave wearing a red Kirabo Seeds t-shirt. He wears it once in a while to school demonstrating he is proud of what our family is doing. I relish his confidence. The house is quiet except for the kittens scampering from room to room. I’ve just finished reading a chapter in Isaiah and I’m feeling the pleasant company of the Lord. Two verses caused me to reach for my journal and write them down, they were both about the PEACE that God graciously pours into our frazzled, distracted, splattered lives. I understand Peace isn’t something I go buy, find, or get my hands on. Peace is something God gives when I surrender my problems to him and trust him. Isaiah 26:12 “ Lord you establish peace for us, all that we have accomplished you have done for us.”
I’m good to go into my day with that on my mind. The rain is going to ruin my jumping lesson with my horse. But I’ll go visit him just to hug his neck, because I love him more than I love riding. Every day I thank God for creating horses and my husband for giving me one!
There are “people” in Uganda who were once in the disguise to help us help orphaned children, but it turns out they were after our resources. They opened a court case against us to close down Kirabo Seeds so they can get their shares in the form of land. The company we opened exists only to stand guard over our Community Based Organization (like a nonprofit) where we serve orphaned children and widows in the community. I had to sit at my desk and read through every email ever exchanged between us, every legal document that I toted home from Uganda and select our defense. All the ugly feelings blazed through my heart. It was not a good day. It certainly stirred up the muddy bottom of our usually clear placid pond.
The other verse I put down from Isaiah 26 was verse 3:
“you will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast because he trusts in you.” So maybe I lost it yesterday while reliving all those painful experiences and toiling through legal jargon used against our good work for the children, but I have a choice today to lean heavy on God by keeping my mind steadfast on his promises and trust him with this case. If I do that I know I’m going to have peace flow through me that would otherwise be beyond reach. This is what people mean when they say, “let go let God”. It’s just so much easier to say it than do it.
This heavy leaning on God, this perfect trust in his plan is the ONLY way we’ve been able to open, establish, and run an orphanage in Uganda. Especially considering the intense opposition we have faced along the way. We know for sure, “all that we have accomplished YOU have done for us.” Thank you God! Gratitude is always the first step towards pushing out the ugly and taking a view of the good. I am so thankful for all He does.
And this my friends is how I talk myself into having a good day.