My house is a complete disaster. If you knew my penchant for order you would gasp aloud and press your hand to your mouth. I awoke at three am seriously thinking I ought to get up and tidy the mess everywhere outside my bedroom door. An unbridled Kira can do so much damage to order in just a few hours of fun. Ok, I’ll be fair. I can’t blame Kira entirely because my working for Kirabo Seeds, and my escapes to the barn put my house lower on the ladder of priorities. Anyway I feel better with that confession out there. When I awoke again, as I poured a cup of black coffee and looked around me I had to make a disciplined choice. What is the first thing I am going to do on the first day of the new year? I couldn’t justify cleaning as the priority, knowing it is something that can be undone as soon as it is done. But I wasn’t sure I could relax in this chaotic space. I had to force myself to sit amongst the mess ( a mighty obstacle to my peace) and meditate (medicate) with God’s word.
My husband read the bible beginning to end in 2012 finishing the last three chapters of revelations yesterday. His discipline is greater than mine. I might grow up to be more like him someday. For now I am content to muddle in my own slop and open to a familiar chapter in Isaiah which is giving me clear instructions for what to teach the people I will meet in Uganda when I am able to sit with new friends and share the truths of God’s word. I was so thankful to discover a guideline this morning for this particular endeavor. Isaiah was refreshing and a good guide for a specific need, but for me personally I needed a double dose of God’s wisdom from proverbs. I may not commit to reading the whole bible in a year, but I can read the whole book of proverbs in a month! (I’ve done both several times.) As I read the purpose and theme of Proverbs in the first seven verses I knew I had found my wonder drug.
Yes I want wisdom, discipline, understanding and a prudent life. I hope to do what is right, just and fair. I hope to share knowledge with the young and add to my own learning with open ears. I need guidance for my discernment. So what does God say is the way to begin this quest? v7: “The fear of The Lord is the beginning of knowledge, but fools despise wisdom and discipline.”
I don’t want to be labeled the fool. But, the fear of The Lord, that’s heavy. I am sure there are tomes written by theologians about what this means exactly. I am just a practical girl seeking God. The fear of the Lord for me means that to be outside of God’s will for my life should be the only thing that scares me to death. The consequences of going there should look like a roaring fire that would naturally cause me to run away. I am safe when I am in the arms of God seeking His truth, His word, His ways. This is how I want to begin the first day of 2013.
…now about that mess…I’ll be otherwise detained with it for the next …countless… hours…and if I work with elbow grease I might be able to go spend a little time with my beautiful Gwinny as my sweet Kira sleeps. If I am good with my time I can arrive home before Kira is set loose on my neat and orderly home. This is pretty much the rhythm of my days.