Yesterday in church, I learned what the second law of thermodynamics is. I didn’t think I would care a bit about that piece of information until he said: “left alone things fall apart not together”.
Now there’s a truth that applies to every bit of life, not just thermodynamics. My family will fall apart if left alone. My health, my house, my garden, my relationships, all of the parts of life that are important to me will fall apart if I leave them alone. Most importantly, as the pastor was keen to shine light on it, my spiritual life falls apart if left alone. That’s why I know I have to draw close to God by reading the bible, prayer, attending church, spending time with Christians and serving so the roaring fire doesn’t diminish to a flickering flame.
I think about this important transition time I am in with Kirabo Seeds. Last year at this time we had just returned from our adoption, we were a week home with our new baby. We were overwhelmed, but not alone. We were so full of purpose because we had agreed to work with Another lIfe and help the orphanage there from our end in America. I was deliriously happy to have these new purposes in our lives. Spending all of my energies and talents to help needy orphaned children was fulfilling and it gave me great joy to serve God in this way. I think I actually floated through those early days.
We were quick to spread the word about the needs of the children in Uganda, and people responded with an overwhelming response. We initiated the process of becoming a nonprofit so we wouldn’t limit what God could do. It was a time in our life that was better than a honeymoon.
Through the year I sensed some of the business in Uganda wasn’t being handled in the way I think is right. It didn’t matter to me that I lived on the other side of the world. I wasn’t going to let it go and shrug in defeat. First, I hired Phiona to be my eyes and hands. When that was vehemently rejected by Another Life, I booked a flight in October to go see for myself what was really happening. It didn’t make any sense to me that they could object to having someone there to do bible study with the children, help them stay on task with chores, and teach them how to study and be good students. I knew then there was something they were hiding. I was not going to leave that situation alone to fall further apart.
As I sat on the planes traveling towards Uganda for that trip I was full of concern for how we were going to negotiate a clear working relationship with Another Life. I was certain that we could hammer out a good set of guidelines so the work for the children would be satisfying for both parties. (I will die an optimist.)
That’s not exactly what happened. I arrived to find it was so far beyond repair that it was criminal. I didn’t leave that problem alone either. I pursued it with the authorities until it was no longer me pushing the case, it became their own investigation, Uganda is pursuing him for justice for what he did to us and to innocent children. Next Monday I will sit in court in Uganda and testify.
I’m not leaving it alone from here either. I’m traveling to Uganda this week to see the resolution of our past efforts and seek justice, but more significantly I’m eager to begin the future of our working with orphans in Uganda. This is not an end, this is the new and improved beginning.
All of the problems we encountered this past year were our boot camp lessons for working in Africa. These were things we needed to know. And now we know. No one is going to do that to this Mzungu Mama again. I can promise that much. When I heard it loud and clear in my heart from God himself that my life was to be spent in serving Him by helping the orphans in Uganda I signed up. I enlisted in the army of God. And I’m not about to go awol because it got hard. I don’t see it as an option to quit, because now I know that things left alone fall apart not together.
The fire I have for the orphans in Uganda is a raging roaring sight, and if the enemy comes anywhere near me he will be devoured by it. And this is because God didn’t leave me alone through this whole time of learning, he brought it all together. Afterall, He is the author of the second law of thermodymanics, I suppose it is fair to say he’ll follow his own laws. I’m so grateful he doesn’t leave me alone, because I would fall apart.