I think we all have a moment in each day where we think “I hope no one ever knows about that”. Speaking for myself, I have a little private list I talk to God about on a regular basis. I recognize those protected nuggets of myself are less and less offensive the closer I walk with God. When I was a kid these were called skeletons in the closet. That’s probably a term that really dates me now. Oh well. I recall a time when I decided it would be easier to like myself if I didn’t have any of those old skeletons in the first place. I couldn’t destroy the old ones but I could make sure I didn’t hang up any new ones. Being married to Craig who is as honest as honest can be helped me to aspire to be more like that. The Christian term is sanctification. The more I learn from the bible and allow the Word to sink deep into the flesh of my heart until it dictates my choices the more sanctified I become. It would be nice if we could snap our fingers and just be who we want to be. But it requires struggles and trials to get there.
Speaking of trials…now that I have my first enemy in my life my eyes are opened to something about integrity that I have never considered before now. I was striving towards high integrity and strict honesty because I was being obedient to God. It was something I was told to do, so I gave it my best effort to do it. But now I see why. Someone is trying to blaspheme and slander my name. All sorts of lies are being told about me. There’s an element of this that raises my dander and I become angry. Why? I don’t want anyone to believe an untruth about me.
But then I realize, wait, I can totally relax. I have done everything right, by the law, and I can provide proof and evidence to discredit all false accusations. What a wonderful feeling that arrives after this discovery. I am sleeping well. My stomach isn’t gurgling. I don’t see more gray hair, and the creases in my skin aren’t multiplying faster than they should. Anyone can try as hard as they want to tarnish me but it rubs right off because I have practiced integrity, gone the full extent to be able to prove our practices are right and just. Doing it God’s way makes us untouchable.
What have I learned from this? We, Kirabo Seeds, must be doing something really important and powerful for God’s kingdom because the enemy has come after us with a full army. God has a really nasty place for the old enemy. And we are going to come out of this stronger and more determined than ever to do the good work God’s given us to do: take care of the orphans in Uganda. We are fighting the good fight. God already said we will win. Woo-hoo.