We have the seven month old update of our little Kira. In case you are new to our story, she is an orphan in Uganda, and we are in the final stages of adopting her into our big family. I was on the phone with my husband Craig when it came in, and as he began to tell me what it said- disregarding my pleas to not tell me so I could read it myself- I had to hang up on him and run to my computer!
As I sat and read it my usual joy and relief for news that she’s doing well sunk into a hollow spot in my heart that was soon to fill with tears. The smiles we used to receive of her had disappeared. In their place were fingers between her full lips and a hollow look in her eyes I’ve seen in many orphans before. Something in her mind and her heart reveals in her face that she is sad. Here’s the report I received to match four photos that show me a baby who seems to have lost all carefree joy:
- She doesn’t show interest in objects
- She is still healthy
- She is slow in learning to crawl
- She is learning to sit by herself
- She is being fed mashed irish with milk
- She is a calm girl
- She weighs 25 pounds and 7 ounces 22.5 inches long
- she is always sucking her thumb
Craig had the same reaction that she seems to be manifesting fear. My friend Erica called me immediately because she knew I would feel concerned with this report. When she called I was on my way to the book store to look up infant intellectual/emotional development guidelines. This is the age where they become aware of their surroundings and begin to feel insecure and stranger anxiety develops. So, some of these developments are normal.
I spent the day feeling blue and praying for her. I asked God to rush us to her so she can be held and begin to know that there is one mama and one daddy who will love her for as long as she lives. We are expecting to go late Oct, early Nov…but with this report that isn’t soon enough for my heart to feel relieved. Please pray for Kira that she will feel secure and loved, and that we will get there quickly to hold her.